Promises, Promises, Promises.

I know I said I would keep everyone updates, but obviously I am terrible at it. A lot has happened since December 17.

Clomid decided once again to let me down, and we have decided to take a break from trying to get pregnant. Not really a break, but we aren't going to the doctors for awhile. We had a crazy January. Our niece turned 2, and Jonathan turned 22. We went to Los Angeles to be guests on the Dr. Phil Show. Lol. I know, I know. Everyone wants details, but I don't really want to talk about. Let's just say it was very interesting, and not the least bit helpful. I was excited, however for him to talk about how I had PCOS, because I would love to raise awareness about it. It is the leading cause of infertility in woman, ya know.

Jonathan and I have decided we are going to try to adopt, but we only want to do a private adoption, because we would like to take the baby home from the hospital. If you know anyone who might be interested, get a hold of me. With any luck we may have something happen early summer. But you know, I try not to put all my eggs in one basket. I have faith if its supposed to happen, it will.

If that doesn't pan out, we are going to try a round of injectables in September, per Tiana finding out from a psychic we would concieve in September. :D

Everything is going really well for us otherwise. We are finally getting control of our finances. Now, if only we could keep it that way. There are talks of a new dishwasher next fall, depending on how everything goes.

I hope everyone is enjoying there winter, it is almost over. Promise.

Tick Tock

I hate waiting! I am such an impatient person. I guess that's justice though, right? Wait your turn! I have a ton of random thoughts running through my head right now, so try and keep up.

Anyways, we are considering doing in-vitro in September of 2010. I have been warned by my doctor that because my uterus is in good condition all the embryos could stick!!! I haven't quite figured out how I feel about that, but Jonathan seems optimistic. I just can't imagine what I would do with triplets. Can you imagine!? I know it would be hectic, but its not like I know how to do anything the easy way.

On another note, Jonathan and I are hosting our very first family Christmas party. I am a little worried, but I am sure it will work out. We are going to have dinner, do the gift exchange. I am sure someone will end up doing karaoke. This weekend we will be spending most of our time preparing for the party. Cleaning, rearranging furniture, baking. You know, the basics. I am really nervous about hosting something like this.

The puppies are getting so big. We cleaned out what is supposed to be a nursery, and turned it into our dogs room. Lol. They have their own bed, and they love it. It was a little bittersweet though. Its like, I know what I want to be in here, and I also know I shouldn't be wasting the space.

That's all I have for now. I hope everyone has a fun and safe holiday, and enjoy this time with your families. :)

Always,
ENB

Happy Holidays.

Well, sadly I have not even a tiny little bit of good news to put forward on the baby stuff. :( The 200mgs of Clomid didn't work. They suggested I try injectables. I am not too fond of the idea, and I let them know that. They said next cycle I would be taking 250mgs on days 3-12. Oh dear. I am worried. That is highest legal dose of that medication. I have no idea what is going to happen. I know that 200mgs made me dizzy and violent. I can only imagine that the 250mgs for longer would make it worse. So, we decided to take a break for now. 2-3 months off. With Christmas just around the corner, and then Jonathan's birthday and Valentine's day (Our second as a married couple. :D) its just better to take some time off.

Gaby's puppies are getting so big. It is crazy how fast they grew up. I think we will actually be able to sell this whole litter. :) Thank goodness.

I hope everyones holidays are looking good. We are hosting our very first Christmas Eve party at our house, and I couldn't be more nervous about it. Its for Jonathan's dad's side of the family. Oh, the fun we will have.

I watched my nephew overnight over the weekend. Deagan is 15 months old now, and just so full of energy. The 3 of us had a great time. Here is the pictures I took of me and Deagan while Uncle Jonathan went to McDonald's. :)













Well, that is my update for now. I hope everyone enjoyed it. Everyone have a great holidays.

Where should I start?

Well, I realize I haven't posted since August 10th. So many things have happened since then. I have no clue where to start. As of today, I am not pregnant...yet. But let's back track a little.

I went to see Dr. Burwinkel on August 18th. I was put on Metformin, and told I had to go on a low carb diet. That didn't work out. Lol. I love carbs. But here is the good news, I have lost about 26lbs. I have been working a lot harder, and it seems like its paying off. Anywho, I went and had a hystersonogram and everything came back good. No blockage, or anything like that. I started Provera, and then went on to take 150mg of Clomid for 5 days. Well, obviously that didn't work. When I went in for my follicle check, my dominant follicle was one at 10mm. It should of been at 20 by that time. So, we abandoned ship so to speak, because the lady at the front desk said our insurance wouldn't cover anything else. It was a terrible month, but as it turns out our insurance does cover the ultrasounds, so hooray!!! Is that enough to make a long story short?

And fast forward. I am currently on the last day of Provera, and should have AF by Sunday. Then the real fun begins. I will be taking 250mgs!!!!! Oh dear. This is not going to be good for anyone involved. I become a raving lunatic on 150. I am a little scared of this cycle but if it works, I will get a positive pregnancy test by Dec 22. How exciting would that be? What an awesome Christmas present. That would be perfect. But we all know things don't go down as they should in my world, but here's hoping.

Onto other things, Gaby had her second little of puppies on November 13th. They are just beautiful. She had them all by herself, we weren't even home. She had 2 boys and 2 girls. They are growing so fast, and have already doubled in size. The are scheduled for their first shots on January 8th. :)

Hmmm, what else is going on in my life? Well, my house is the cleanest its been since our wedding, and I am sooo happy about that. We put our tree and Christmas lights up, and we are so proud of ourselves. Lol. We were the first people on the street to put ours up, and the day after 2 people followed. We don't really know any of our neighbors. We pretty much keep to ourselves, and they are always giving us rude stares. So, hahahaha.

I have fallen in love with the redone Great Value brand at Walmart. Especially the tortilla chips and salsa. Its been saving us a ton of money on groceries.

Well, I think that is all for now. My new goal is to make a post after every doctors appointment. Let's see how this goes.

Confession of an Adult Drama Queen.

Maybe I am just crazy. Lol. What a way to start something out, right? Well, I am now all done with the pills, but the worst of the side effects seems to just now be arriving. OH MY GOD, the hot flashes. They are just ridiculous.

Anyways, I so badly want to write a productive blog. I just don't feel very productive. Hmmm. Can anyone actually follow my incoherent rambling??? I don't really know what to say right now, I just know I want to say something. See what I mean. I keep getting side tracked because it is sooooo damn hot in here! Its getting hot in here. Lol.

Well, we told our parents finally that we were TTC. I liked some reactions better than others. Actually, I like them all but one. Bill and Angie. Jonathan's dad and stepmom. How more insincere can you get. If you don't care, then say you don't care. Good God. It just seemed so unimportant to them. Everyone else seems to be very supportive. I appreciate that a whole lot.

Alright, I am out for now. I am going to go lay in front of a fan. I'll try this again later.

Emotional Mess.

Long time, no see. Lol. I suppose so. Lets see, the last post was about my new doctor. Let's update that first. I am getting close to a period. I haven't had one since, I don't know. May 10th I think. And it seems like Provera Periods are oh-so-extreme. :( I'm like a ticking time bomb, and I know it. I yell, and cry, a scream, and just feel sucky all the time. But I gotta keep my head in the game. So if my calculations are correct, I will take my very last clomid on my birthday. In my opinion, best present ever.

Now, you may wonder "last clomid?" Yes. It turns out my little job at Speedway, oh yeah I work at Speedway now, was a blessing in disguise. I was working 3rd shift when a woman came in, and we began chatting. To make a very long story short, she has PCOS and a very beautiful baby girl. She recommended me to her doctor. Dr. Thomas Burwinkel. I looked him up, and I was astounded. I went to a doctor rating website. He had a 4.9 out of 5 stars. I called and made an appt. August 18th, 2009. The girl told me everything this man did for her, and I was reading all the things he did for others. I think this might be it folks. Really. The receptionist there said they very rarely have anyone leave there unhappy. When I told her I was taking clomid and it wasn't working, she said the doctor probably wouldn't even mess with it anymore then. She said he would probably move to iui (artificial insemination.) So, wish me luck!!! This could be it.



I know this could be much longer, but current cranky mood says otherwise. I'll try to keep everyone in the loop.

Do you see what I see?

It took me awhile to actually post this, because I wasn't sure how to say how I feel about it. But, anyways, here it goes. I went with Jonthan to a doctors appt last Thursday, and asked if they had got my ultrasound report back. The nurse told me she would go check, and come back. About a minute later she popped her head in, and say that it was normal. I thought that was pretty odd because I was still having a lot of pains that seemed to be getting worse. Then the doctor came in to the room, and mind you this was Jonathan's appt. She came in and said hi to us both, and asked me how I was doing. I said I was okay but I was still having pain, so I might be back next week. (They were closed on Friday) I told her I was confused because the nurse told me it was normal, and then she preceeded to say..."Oh no. You have a tiny cyst on your left ovary. Come in next week and we can talk about it." !!!! Are you kidding me? I knew it was only a matter of time before I got cysts because how long can you really get away with not having cysts and have PCOS. Lol. But really? Tell me over a weekend so I have all weekend to think about it? Ugh. Well I just thought I would post a small update before going to the doctors tomorrow. Hope everyone had a good 4th!